…..is when you know very well that that person will hurt you and treat you in that “special” manner, reserved only for you and based on judgements, assumptions and prejudices from the words and mouth of other unrelated people, yet you repeatedly go back to the same person, despite the harsh and unfair circumstances – this is like you yourself handing this very person the knife and opening up the door wide, purposely for her to continue hurting and messing you up, over and over again.
This, my friend, is self-sabotage.
I do not think I deserve this in any manner whatsoever to be treated akin to being an irritant or a beggar asking for free consultation when I was seeking for earnest help and advice from a professional.
As with all other things and people, I adhere and abide strictly by the principle that should anything even remotely affects my performance or ability in terms of work performance, it is basically down to an easy over-night decision, to cut this situation or person right out from my life. No more me as the sentimental person I used to be hanging on to the past, thinking of gratitude etc, when this is what I get when I least deserve it.
Question is… Would God have reacted or responded in such similar manner?
Do I want any explanations as to why this “special treatment” is only reserved specially for me? Well, yes and no…
All I know is it’s time to cut off and move on as though nothing ever existed.
No longer will I self sabotage with this person.
The end.