Dear God,
You are and have been extremely adamant that You would not allow me to leave this party as and when I like and according to my whims and fancies. You watched me rise, fall and collapse till almost flatlined out – from the heights of notoriety to the depths of depravity, this year, 2024, I can say I have experienced it all.
Yet I ask why. Why You sit watching without doing anything? Why would You watch Your child suffer and struggle through this all, yet wouldn’t let me leave?
If You truly have a purpose for me here to fulfill that You think no one else is able to, I sincerely plead to You in prayers to let it reveal itself soon. Soonest possible.
If You walk with the weak yet continue to give strength to the strong…
May You grant me this strength, dear God….