i tried to give my best to everyone
i tried to do and be the person everyone expected of me
everything i did, was out of professionalism and i expected sky high expectations of myself in terms of quality
through my career lifespan, i never ever had a complaint from client or expert over the way i handled my work
but people judge
society stigmatised
for things that aren’t even my fault in the end
and in the end, for the first time in my life, i feel defeated
totally defeated by virtue of my illness
that has led me to this state
i’ve lost everything in my life now
trainloads of people are laughing and clapping in glee at my state
i struggled and worked so hard – what for?
in the end, i killed myself