This recovery is the hardest one I can ever remember going through.
Maybe it is my body that is progressively getting weaker. Or maybe I was really really critical this time – whichever, I ain’t sure.
Most days I feel like a sotong and worse part is, my memory and concentration are really atrocious now. I used to be able to speed read and have photographic memory – now it’s all just fog, and I struggle extra hard to work.
A stark reminder to learn patience and the importance of pacing myself to last further and longer as I’m not sure too how long this will take. Yes, needless to say, it is absolutely pain-stakingly frustrating and so many times I just wanted to throw in the towel and take time off to just focus on completing the rest of my MBA.
The disorientation feeling still gets into me and I’m struggling still to resume a normal life. I cannot believe too how fast the deterioration was this time.
Out of all episodes, this one was really extremely traumatic for me. Hence, my focus this time is really on doing what I need to get healthy as I definitely DO NOT want another episode on replay and am striving to do whatever I can to avoid what I can. Unless God decides otherwise.